Idleyld Park

By isabelle

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Heard the news about János the evening before our trip. First, I was in disbelief and shock of the sudden passing of my beloved mentor and friend. The grieving process kicked in during the road trip from California to Oregon as I told John about the impact János made in my life, the lessons I learned from, and stories shared with him. I wept in the car as I told years of memories and wept to sleep for the first few nights of our trip.

When there's life, there is death. It's that simple. Still, we are never prepared for the passing of our loved ones. It's hard not to wonder, what about those things we hadn't done yet? When I moved away from San Diego exactly the day after the last Soirée for Music Lovers concert, I dreamed to become someone who could impact others and shared the pure joy of creating music with others as much as the way János did for me. I hoped to come back as a better pianist and play music with him on the same stage again. What now? It feels like parts of our dreams shatter when the person who influenced and supported the dream is gone.


I never finished this particular journal.

Rationally, I know the answer to "What now?" We grieve, celebrate the life that's passed, and move on with life. The best thing I can do is to pass on the similar impact to others and be a friend and mentor J was to me, in remembrance of him.

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I should have known better - pack at night, not on the day of the departure. John and I got our toiletries (quick for me - always have the 1-quart bag ready!) and clothes ready. Then I walked into the kitchen to pack snacks for the road, realizing I wanted to tidy up the kitchen before we locked up (oops!).
I packed the fruits and veggies as well as nuts, coconut juice, chocolate, and water. Yep, it's like a field trip. We finally got out of the door and into our car at 11:30am. Yay road trip.

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We had Mama Engler's classic fried eggs with bacon, toasted bread, pineapples, apricots, nectarines, and grapes. Mama Engler fried up the bacons and eggs while I cut up the nectarines and washed the grapes. John sliced the bread and made coffee for us. Team effort! Hummingbirds were flying around and drinking water outside the windows in the midst of all.

Just finished my half cup of black coffee. The sun is shining on the cherry trees next to the deck.

We decided that we were all up for going to Crater Lake.